View from the Porch… I want Birthday Pancakes

The truth is…

I did not remember my anniversary this morning. In fact, until five minutes ago when a relative texted me, I had no idea. And I’m sure my husband doesn’t either.

Last night at 1a.m., I started crying at my computer thinking about my four year old and questioning what I’m teaching him. As I try to relaunch my own branding and get my sites shipshape, plus taking good care of my clients, I’ve been on the computer a lot lately. Not to mention my husband has been running for political office, there’s all that. Then there’s a house I’ve never felt at home in and because of our new adult adventures, we fret about what most couples do – financial matters and the world dramas that impact us.

Blah, blah blah blah adult stuff, right? His world is us and school and Thomas the Tank Engine.

So I came across this beautiful family and the lovely, warm site and a post about the tradition of birthday pancakes. So simple, right? So fun… what a great tradition… what a great idea.

So I cried wondering how much he’s seeing. How much balancing am I really doing? Because this is it. Maybe it’s not the greatest house to me but it’s HOME to him. Beyond bedtime stories and songs and hugs and the “I love yous”, what else does a kid want? And we adults know, right? From our own childhoods… more time with mom and dad actually “being together.” Will my son grow up to think “screens” – computer, TV, phone, etc. – are more important than physically present people?

I do a good job of staying low-tech for the weekends, but I know I can do better the rest of the week. That was our talk this morning, my husband and I, not our anniversary. And I know “we” are just as important to tend and I’ll surprise him with something today.

So I cried and then I moved into action. I created a new schedule this morning where I will strive to limit “screen time” in his presence. I will try to get back to what I want. These quotes are part of the messages last night and I’m grateful. Every now and again we need that “whisper” that reminds us what’s really important.

iam_seeking_iam_strivingThe truth is you know who are. The truth is making sure your loved ones experience you more than the rest of the world – that’s what matters. Go do something you enjoy with someone you love today. Speak your truth to them. Share your wit with them. Go sit on the porch and love.

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