I am taking these five minutes for me. To not keep promises really gnaws at me and the first ones I break are ones to myself. And shouldn't those be first?
i came across this great question yesterday
WHAT DOES YOUR BEST SELF DO FOR HERSELF?
I picture my best self as joyful, creative, athletic and very caring... of just others? No. She lives soul centered and my aha was she makes time for herself.
so this question is now taped to my monitor. Because my best self checks in and sees if I need a break, a drink of water, a shower, a walk with the dog, etc.
“Cherish your solitude. Take trains by yourself to places you have never been. Sleep out alone under the stars. Learn how to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Say no when you don’t want to do something. Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone around you disagrees. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you’re doing here. Believe in kissing.”
I awoke at 4:30am as desired and yet getting to my writing took all day. Pity.
But I am here. So hurray!
It's been a long week. Was playing with different logos for this blog. Welcome any thoughts.
For some reason I love the strawberry but it has absolutely nothing to do with a porch or a swing. But I'm thinking I can use it as an icon of some kind along with a cup of tea (cold days) and iced tea glass (sunny days). Managing brands is what I've done for the last 20 years so it never shuts off.
I'm considering marketing and its impact all the time. Like a cop assessing a situation, I'm out in public considering the price and the ROI. And customer service.
Man, customer service really gets to me. It's the one thing you can do free that has a huge impact. In fact, I'm taking my darling dog to a new vet in the morning because I just can't stand our current vet's office team. I think they're terribly rude and slightly slow.
Wish I had something pithy to say but I don't.
Gonna go sit with "the boy," bathe him, laugh with him, perhaps do some dancing to get the wiggles out before bed, finish Downton Abbey's season finale, shower and get thyself to bed.
It was a good day. I did accomplish much. I am ever grateful.
... I attempted this morning. Woke at 4:40 to complete these meeting minutes I've been slowly attackign for a week. Minutes from a four-hour meeting are longer than the meeting!
But done and sending off.
In the meantime, "the boy" awoke and came in for a morning snuggle in mama's lap. Nothing more lovely than a cuddling three year old. Except of course when he becomes four and thereby a cuddling 4 year old.
I hold him close, kiss his head and savor the moment. I realize that he will grow quickly and these moments are precious. I'm not hurrying to his teenage years of needing to beat on his door to wake up and get to school
Every day, I try to make a little time a little special moment of love and hope these are the memories he'll have. Not the moments when mama loses it. Okay we know he'll keep those but possibly my cuddles are a higher quantity and quality.
So with the board minutes finally done, I feel rather ready to take on the day. Lot of rain last night. Received flash flood warning so heading to daycare will be an adventure. I'm a fan of driving through large roadside puddles - splashing half of one's SUV is too too awesome for both me and "the boy."
Had a nice dinner at the in-laws house last night. we have a close family friend's wedding this weekend in addition to Mardi gras parades so woohoo! I left their home with four boxes of girl scout cookies - oh yeah. Yes, I got the thin mints. And the samoas. The boy is a fan of trefoils have ate an entire sleeve while at their home. Gotta love toddler dinners. Actually he did some real foods but he was living like a king on the couch eating those cookies and watching Nemo. And since Mama got wine and dinner need to make dinner, there was little complaint from me.
all right off to my daily grind.
"bless my path today. help me to act with wisdom and live in perpetual gratitude."
I don't know if it's entering my 40s and having better things to do or knowing myself well. Or it's the mom thing. Or it's me trying to take a step so I quit having days where I look like complete frump but I've really decided that I have a signature look. I think I wear it well with my body at whatever size and it's what I'm confortable in. And I wear it almost weekly. So why not simplify the wardrobe - except for a few items - to a certain look I've got.
and it's this: black dress (varying lengths and collars) with a sweater (mainly cardigans) and large earrings or smaller earrings with interesting necklace. And I tend to do sandals but hoping as weight is eliminated, I'll get back to a few high heels.
I'm thinking this will clean the closet of items I do not absolutely love and therefore never wear, and clean my mind in the morning to dress and get on with the day but looking well.
Thoughts? Anyone do this? Try this?
Last night I decided that I'll use this blog to re-enter the world of Morning Pages. If you are not familiar with this term, think brain dump. But in a really high-brow artistic way.
They are actually part of the artist's way and essentially Morning Pages help you begin the day to be more creative by getting all the random thoughts out of your head so you can just work during the day. Nothing will be nibbling at you.
That said, have you seen this... because this is pretty accurate for my brain most day.
By the way, yes, I realize it's 5:30am and I have no idea why I'm up. I went to bed at 11:45. The last few nights I've been doing this - only five hours of sleep. Not ideal for me as it will absolutely lead to a crying bout and some point.
I began a new job last week and this might have something to do with it. It's an old-new job, meaning I've agreed to take on a job that I did for three years but new people running the asylum. NOTE: Not actual asylum. It allows me to work from home and earn steady income as I continue to work on my other ventures and be a mom.
Because yes, I just want to do it all. Oh and i can without any price paid. NOTE: Not true at all. I'm two hundreds pound overweight so there's my price. And one of the foci for getting my life soul-centered.
So what's on today's agenda. Two phone meetings, cleaning up of meeting minutes from a week ago, learning new timesheet system and the taking of one online class regarding new team-sharing workspace program. Oh yes, and what I'm about to do now which is shower.
That's going to be great. Let's go rock today.
P.S. Actually incredibly proud of myself to have done a morning page and written a consecutive second day on here. That's Amazing for me. Woohoo!
If you're here, if you were curious, I think you already have a sense of what I mean by porch swing living.
It's like walking on a beach any time of day.
It's living IN the present and feeling content to do so. A life where I take time to say hello to people, to be kind to all one encounters, to be content with brightening my little patch of the world. It's hugging my kids close, loving my spouse warmly and feeling good about who I am.
A few years ago, I read Danielle LaPorte's "Fire Starter Sessions" and in it she asks what you want your life to feel like? Not what will you achieve or earn or obtain, but what is life going to feel like wrapped around you.
And I want my life to feel like a homemade quilt warm from being out in the sun. I want my life to feel joy-filled... abundant... creative... athletic... and soul-centered.
I'm not sure what I'm going to share here. Not sure exactly what might come out. But my hope is when I arrive at the login, it'll feel like stepping through the front door, out onto the porch. Taking a sit and thinking thoughts - some new, some old - and sharing a little of my view. Because as I share what stirs my soul, I believe I will bring soul stirrings into my day-to-day reality more frequently.
So welcome. Iced tea is on the table. Comfy chairs all around.